I've been sick for a month... it's really tough...really so tough... i am so emotionally drained...i don't know what to do.. i am feeling so down...i was really looking for much support emotionally... being sick for a month sacrifices mostly everything... the way of living on your every day life...even almost my relationship... i am in a long distance relationship...i consider time as one of the most important on this type of relationship...as much as possible i always spend my time with him... but that relationship sacrifice mostly changed everything...i don't want to explain what had happened but it's just tough to think that the one who keeps you strong...the one who really brought you to the reality..the one who let you believe that we should trust each other no matter what...with just a snapped...booom it almost destroyed my mind... i was clueless... i don't know what to do.. i am bothered... i love him so much...everyone knows...everyone knows how proud i am to have a boyfriend like him....even it's tough...he did told me about it and he said he's sorry for it...i felt the sincerity and the guilt...giving a chance is not a choice but a decision... i love him so much...there's still a room for it...i know this is just a test and also a realization...we both need to reflect and also accept each others mistake...
so far i've been feeling better now...of course trying to smile...and trying to be strong... i can't afford to get sick again..maybe because of depression or what...? nah no way! i am still positive in life... i know at the moment i am still kinda hurt but tomorrow...i will be fine! IT'S TOUGH BUT STILL DON'T FORGET TO SMILE!
