Just Wait

Seems like today is a good day...well actually it's raining now...so chilly...makes me so emo!! this is why sometimes i love the rain!! it reminds me of something from the past and how it molded me to be better today...it does really matter of how time could let it change...so i guess it's worth the wait! wait for the right timing....

at this moment, i am still waiting for the right timing for my plans...i am still making my lists and all the steps when and where will i start... it's quite hard but yet if you have that goal...why not? right?

for love? well it's good...it's good to think that i waited for time to heal...waited for the time of explanations...i was able to handle and approached problems very calmly... i just hope no one will take it for granted...coz if someone though... ill be worse as a volcano erupting! hehehehe i really want to live life happy and peacefully...with no worries...with no lies...with nothing to think but just my loved ones...well with that...all i can say is... "JUST WAIT" ...it will come on my way! 

Tough but still don't forget to Smile

I've been sick for a month... it's really tough...really so tough... i am so emotionally drained...i don't know what to do.. i am feeling so down...i was really looking for much support emotionally... being sick for a month sacrifices mostly everything... the way of living on your every day life...even almost my relationship... i am in a long distance relationship...i consider time as one of the most important on this type of relationship...as much as possible i always spend my time with him... but that relationship sacrifice mostly changed everything...i don't want to explain what had happened but it's just tough to think that the one who keeps you strong...the one who really brought you to the reality..the one who let you believe that we should trust each other no matter what...with just a snapped...booom it almost destroyed my mind... i was clueless... i don't know what to do.. i am bothered... i love him so much...everyone knows...everyone knows how proud i am to have a boyfriend like him....even it's tough...he did told me about it and he said he's sorry for it...i felt the sincerity and the guilt...giving a chance is not a choice but a decision... i love him so much...there's still a room for it...i know this is just a test and also a realization...we both need to reflect and also accept each others mistake...

so far i've been feeling better now...of course trying to smile...and trying to be strong... i can't afford to get sick again..maybe because of depression or what...? nah no way! i am still positive in life... i know at the moment i am still kinda hurt but tomorrow...i will be fine! IT'S TOUGH BUT STILL DON'T FORGET TO SMILE!

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Welcome Back!

whooaaah like it's been  like 4 months since i posted something on this blog... well i almost forgot it again but thanks for my deep thoughts and was able to remember and decided to get on this again! and also decided not only to post poems but also something about what is happening somehow in my life and also i'll try to post pictures here too...

for the past 4 months... it's been a good  time so far... problems came...problems solved...problems came again...problems solved...that's normal in life...right? so i am used of that...but also of course there were good times too...so a lot of good memories to flash back and yeah i am much happier than before...

mostly my old poems are all about love... how love hurts me...how love made me happy... and i guess i will not stick on that...i realized that there's more in life not just love...so many things I've wasted all because of concentrating for one thing and i forgot myself... " how about me?" I've done so much things to others... sacrificed most of everything in my life...and even exposed myself to something i didn't used to... but oh well i did it already... somehow in my thoughts should i regret it? but nah no! it's a learning experience and it's a good source to take a look back whatever decisions will i make in future! there's so much in this life! i can't wait for more! well patience but hell yeah! i want this roller coaster ride be more exciting!


life is everything...
life could be anything...
life is your thing...
enjoy and get it more exciting...
-Amor-

Amore "I swear"

I Swear

I swear that someday you and I will be together,

I swear it to you please do remember,

Life will be good cause you’re my lover,

I swear it to you, only with you forever.

 

I swear that someday you and I will share the laughter,

I swear it you please do remember,

Life will be good and will be better,

I swear it to you, only with you forever.

I swear that someday you and I will not be a stranger,

I swear it to you please do remember,

Life will be great coz we have each other,

I swear it to you, only with you forever.

Time may change, time is fast,

Time is gold, it would last,

With you, I swear it to you, only with you forever.

I swear.

Amor : "Either"

Either

These past few days I am not being me,

I don’t know but there’s something that is lacking and I want to figure it out,

I don’t know what it is about,

Maybe I’m just having doubts?

I do stare to some things and lots of thoughts comes up on my mind,

I’m always in the border or sometimes between the lines,

I have no road to cross or to walk on,

I am clueless, I am confused and I guess now I am gone.

As for now, I am continue walking though I don’t know where I am going,

It may lead me back to the beginning or to my end,

It may lead me to hell or in heaven,

It may lead me back to life or death,

Either of those will happen and it will never be set,

Again.

Amor : "Lost"

"Lost"

There are times that you think your life is already enough,

You can be calm, smile and laugh,

People surround you, people whom they think they know you,

Knows nothing and got no clue,

How I think life is so messy, yes so messy.

There are times that you think you got all the happiness,

Eat, drink and cry less,

No one knows it’s just worst,

Yeah it’s on me… I am cursed.

I feel so empty, so empty and lost,

I can’t find the way where I want to go out the most,

I want to fly and be free far away from the nest I am now,

I want to do something new somehow.