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Saturday, March 22, 2014

Change: Good or Bad?

This is just about my opinion so feel free to put comments on your opinion too.

People change. Even the world change, but the question is how would you know that the person change?
We are surrounded by many and of course only one will stand out and that's how you met your first love. 
At first you were both sweet with each other, showing more love and affection and do special things that you weren't use to do before. It like the world is full of so much hearts and butterflies. As time goes by, of course you were tested ; tested by time, tested by problems and tested by people. Of course you're so much in love and try to fix everything and you both passed it. It's a good attitude to stay like that but remember it's just a start.

Days passed by and now it's more than a year. Believe me or not, any changes will happen. It might be good but worse is if it's a bad one. Sometimes it made me think why people change. You know how they used to do something before, how they sent message on you and how they made you very special. For me too, if you're feeling something change between you and that person, there's really a changes. That's what you feel right? that's how it so. You'll know if a person change to the way they approach you; the way they look at you; the way they value you; but it's really the way you look at it. It will be fine everything go on onto that stage. Just be careful  cause that changes might hurt you a lot.

If i change or if i did change already (lol) , i know it's for the  betterment

Friday, March 21, 2014

New Songs Released!!!!!!

 New Songs Released! Check the New EP links below!!!
Full set of the EP 

https://soundcloud.com/fam/sets/cocaine-heretic-ep

Cocaine Heretics
https://soundcloud.com/fam/cocaine-heretics 

Pay Me bitch
https://soundcloud.com/fam/cocaine-heretic-ep-pay-me

Nice Shoes

https://soundcloud.com/fam/cocaine-heretic-ep-nice-shoes

Fire Dancing
https://soundcloud.com/fam/cocaine-heretic-ep-fire

Whore
https://soundcloud.com/fam/cocaine-heretic-ep-whore

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Long Distance Relationship

When life gets tough, all you want is to be with someone you love. It's seems to be easy when you're facing problems with someone who can hold your hand, kiss you and hug you but what if you're in a long distance relationship? too difficult right? well one of the consequences of this type of relationship is that. 

I've been through that. I am in a long distance relationship for 14 months already and those months were not easy.  Having 9307 miles between us is not easy. Like normal relationship, there's also misunderstandings and issues but despite of that i can say that the best thing to do is don't let your emotions be over you, be calm and ask what's the problem. Before I was immature on handling problems and issues. It was a big problem and I really need to change it. My boyfriend helped me and let me grow as i am today. Now I am able to understand and also can manage my emotions. Now i am able to be positive enough in dealing long distance problems as long it really it will not hurt me super the most (like totally will break me)  I will be as tough as a metal. 

Time and trust is the most important. Even how busy we are, there's always time for us. It even makes us feel better after a stressful day. Trust is a must. No matter how many mountains and wide ocean between you, don't forget to be honest. There's no secret that can't be revealed. The fact that your partner is trusting you, then he/she deserves to have a loyal partner. That's one thing you can't get back 100% if you will destroy it. so TRUST!

There's nothing easy on this world even being lazy is not easy. If you want to be on a LDR, it's really a big challenge but there's nothing impossible in love. Make sure to be strong.


Monday, March 17, 2014

Just Wait

Seems like today is a good day...well actually it's raining now...so chilly...makes me so emo!! this is why sometimes i love the rain!! it reminds me of something from the past and how it molded me to be better today...it does really matter of how time could let it change...so i guess it's worth the wait! wait for the right timing....

at this moment, i am still waiting for the right timing for my plans...i am still making my lists and all the steps when and where will i start... it's quite hard but yet if you have that goal...why not? right?

for love? well it's good...it's good to think that i waited for time to heal...waited for the time of explanations...i was able to handle and approached problems very calmly... i just hope no one will take it for granted...coz if someone though... ill be worse as a volcano erupting! hehehehe i really want to live life happy and peacefully...with no worries...with no lies...with nothing to think but just my loved ones...well with that...all i can say is... "JUST WAIT" ...it will come on my way! 


Sunday, March 16, 2014

Tough but still don't forget to Smile

I've been sick for a month... it's really tough...really so tough... i am so emotionally drained...i don't know what to do.. i am feeling so down...i was really looking for much support emotionally... being sick for a month sacrifices mostly everything... the way of living on your every day life...even almost my relationship... i am in a long distance relationship...i consider time as one of the most important on this type of relationship...as much as possible i always spend my time with him... but that relationship sacrifice mostly changed everything...i don't want to explain what had happened but it's just tough to think that the one who keeps you strong...the one who really brought you to the reality..the one who let you believe that we should trust each other no matter what...with just a snapped...booom it almost destroyed my mind... i was clueless... i don't know what to do.. i am bothered... i love him so much...everyone knows...everyone knows how proud i am to have a boyfriend like him....even it's tough...he did told me about it and he said he's sorry for it...i felt the sincerity and the guilt...giving a chance is not a choice but a decision... i love him so much...there's still a room for it...i know this is just a test and also a realization...we both need to reflect and also accept each others mistake...

so far i've been feeling better now...of course trying to smile...and trying to be strong... i can't afford to get sick again..maybe because of depression or what...? nah no way! i am still positive in life... i know at the moment i am still kinda hurt but tomorrow...i will be fine! IT'S TOUGH BUT STILL DON'T FORGET TO SMILE!